Having arrived on campus as a born-again Christian, the BSU helped me grow to new levels in my Christina faith and walk, gave me wonderful opportunities of service and ministry (including spending the summer of 1984 in Zimbabwe, Africa as a BSU Summer Missionary), and most importantly, fellowship with other Christian college students.
Having surrendered to the full-time gospel ministry in 1985, I graduated from NLU in December 1986 and began seminary at New Orleans Baptist Theological Seminary in August 1987. Due to my college BSU years and God's leadership, I felt a tremendously strong call to serve as a BSU Director on the college campus, ministering to college students.
Several months before graduating from seminary in 1990, I sent close to forty(40) resumes out to state conventions and college campuses, knowing that God was going to open many opportunities for a BSU position.
It just didn't happen.
As hard as I scratched and clawed, prayed and cried, called and wrote letters to those who I thought could help me, the door just never opened.
In late 1990, my one and only opportunity for a BSU position came while Regina and I were serving in Camden, AL. John Moore, State BSU Director of the Louisiana Baptist Convention, called and generally offered me the BSU Director position at Nicholls State University in Thibodaux, LA.
Well, needless to say I began packing my bags and making my plans, preparing to say goodbye to Camden, AL and hello to Thibodaux, LA.
Two weeks later...the letter came.
A letter that stated, "Thanks for allowing your name to be submitted...but we now feel led by the Holy Spirit to move in a different direction. May God bless you as you seek His perfect Will for your life. (blah, blah, blah, etc.)"
To be honest, I was as crushed as I've ever been in my life as I watched my dream go down the drain. God's perfect will was in my heart and mind, or so I thought. I felt my ministry had ended before it even began. The tears began to flow and I alerted my wife that I was going home for the day, where I then sulked in my heart- brokenness and despair.
I never received another nibble towards a BSU Director position after that.
Some days I can still feel the pain of that disappointment creep into my heart & mind.
But one thing I can remember during that occasion is that my wife never fully felt my pain in that rejection. Not that she didn't care that my dreams had just gone down the tubes, but I think something else was going on.
I think what was ultimately going on was this - the fact that I wanted to be a BSU Director was my dream, not God's dream. So what I thought was God's best for me...may not have been God's best for both me and Regina.
Sometimes God has other plans. We have good plans. God has the BEST plans for us. I simply wasn't supposed to serve in the capacity of a BSU Director. Thankfully, God knew things I didn't know. He knows best.
So once again I hear the verse ringing in my ears..."For God causes all things to work together for good...!"
All I can really say is thank you, Lord, for working your best in my life. Even when I don't understand it.